My daughter, Spike, passed away today at the age of 12 years old.
My parents told me that she was in a perfect health and condition even until today when she took her last breath. When my mom woke up at 5 AM this morning, she was surprised to see that Spike was already waiting outside her room. Spike followed her everywhere, and even when my mom was brushing her teeth, Spike stayed very closely with her, lying down comfortably on my mom’s feet. Mum only wondered why Spike was particularly affectionate today. It was only after my mom finished brushing her teeth that she found out that Spike was no longer breathing. She was there lying on my mom’s feet, like a puppy who was sleeping very peacefully.
Spike and I grew up together very closely since 1996. I have always been her favourite person at home, and I too treated her like a princess. When I came home to Surabaya last week, somehow I knew that it was going to be the last time that I ever saw her. I could just feel it in my heart. I guess when you are really close to someone, you do form a very strong bond with each other.
Whenever I’m in Surabaya, I always take Spike for an evening walk. After I bring her home, I continue with my usual 10K run. On the last day that I actually had time to go out for a walk, I took Spike for a circular walk around the neighbourhood. As Spike was already old, it didn’t take too long before she was short of breath. Nevertheless, I sensed that Spike still really wanted to take a walk with me. So instead of taking her home, I held her closely in my arms, and we both walked around for nearly an hour, enjoying the view & the sunset together like the world’s two best friends. I skipped my 10K run, and had a quality time with Spike.
This morning when I learned about the news, I wasn’t really in shock, as I had a feeling that this was already going to happen. I thought I wasn’t going to cry, but I still couldn’t contain myself. I had a long cold shower & tears kept rolling down from my eyes. Spike was an important part of myself, and I feel that something in me was missing with her being gone. Over the years, I have learned to let go of attachments. I have learned that we never really POSSESS our loved ones. All we have is the TIME to spend with them. Eventually, there will come the time when we will have to part, and that’s exactly when we have to learn to LET GO. That’s why it is very important to never take anyone for granted, to appreciate every little blessing in our life, and to live for the day.
Spike is the most wonderful life companion I’ve had for 12 years, and I have absolutely no regrets. She has been my little angel, and she will never cease to be one in my very own heart. Rather than seeing today as the day where Spike left us, I choose to see today as a seal of an extraordinary 12-year journey of life. I am grateful that she left with no suffering, and with very much peace indeed.
Thank you for being in our life and sharing so much love with us every single day throughout these whole 12 years, Spikey. You’ll always be in our hearts.
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Hi ivana, your story has touched my heart.i am sorry to hear about Spike.
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Thank you, Martha. I really appreciate it.
I’d also like to thank everyone for your kind emails and text-messages.
Do take care & I wish you all well,
Ivana
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hi ivana,
please accept my deep condolance for spike.
I will send password to you on monday.
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Dear Iv,
I’m really sorry to hear it..
I lost my Glowy too, Nov 16th 2007. She’s just 4 years old, and like you story, i’ve just had a quality time with her..
walking around and chasing hens (it’s true,hehe), grooming time too!
and just two days after that, she’s got sick, a terrible one.
After two days of hard struggle, she’s passed away. we’re sad, but also relieved that she’s no longer suffered.
Glowy used to be so healthy, even our Vet was shocked with the sudden illness.
So, it’s, really good that Spike is so healthy until the very last time.
Just like Spike, Glowy also tried to passed away in a peaceful way. Glowy waited my mom to wake-up, greeted her and while my mom preparing Glowy’s meal, Glowy’s gone.
I was so sad that time, but as u said, we can choose how to react in this situation.
It takes time to heal, but we can control ourselves so no other damage will happen.
I know (and wish) that u’re going to be alright Iv..
open ur heart, not only to keep ur keen memories with Spike, but also to have another relationship with another lucky pet of yours, once u’re ready for it.
(like me and my new ones now, Frizzy and Nieu2, also Sera)
with all sympathy and condolences,
-Apri-
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Hope you’re feeling better, I understand your loss…
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Toute ma condoléances, Ivana.
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Sorry to hear about Spike. I remember her as a very cute and very smart young puppy about 11 years ago. I used to wonder from time to time how she is like. She still looked the same and as white.
Again, sorry for your loss.
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Hi.. I’m so sorry bout spike..
I know how u feel. When i lost Bruno last year, I cried for days. But then, like you said, I let him go and keep the memories about him always..
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Ivana,
It must be hard to lose a friend who’s been there for you anytime you needed one. I hope that your heart slowly heals and are left with joyful memories of the moments you had together.
Take care, Esther